Monday, January 22, 2007
Its a strange mood I am in,
I can't really describe it.
Its like 'I'm-irritated-with-the-world" sort of feeling,
yet not exactly.
I hate not being able to decide how I feel, its kinda fustrating.
Maybe I am feeling pensive, too many things to think about.
It eats you up from the inside.
School, is bearable. I suppose.
Its just so mundane. Life is mundane.
Anyway, little up and down moments.
Like how today I went pretty much kind of high during the last 2 periods.
Discussing about JCs, Goong-S, Sev7en (I forgot where the 7 should appear).
Adele went like mad and started day-dreaming about him.
ThankGod Emath was slack. Probability, its like wonderfully amusing.
Especially with the bad bad jokes
Becky: Its so retarded why they keep on using dice in their question.
Chloe: Because its MIND BOGGLING.
(stunned silence)
Chloe: Don't you get it. MIND BOGGLING.
Becky&Chloe: HAHAHAHAHAHA
Okay it does not really sound funny right now, maybe it was the moment.
I think thats what makes it a bad joke.
I am reading through some of my old posts, from 2004.
Seems really long ago, even if it was just 2 years.
I am wondering if I would look back when I am J2, to these posts that I am writing now and think once again.
Somehow I find myself really naive, even if I am just a mere 2 years older (nearly).
Its like life was just black and white and well easy?
Sometimes I think I was that?
Cool stuff.
I suppose I have grown.
I feel kind of sad I am riding so very little now a days.
I miss jumping ):
its kinda like you look longingly at the course.
Ohwell, my mother refuses to let me take the risk,
in case I fall off the horse break my arm, crack my head
as a result fail my exams.
NEXT YEAR! I will ride more.
In so many of my posts, I talk about these horses, Bobby, Big Red, Wanna, Albert, Loco&duck.
They are all kind of strange and quirky,
but now I miss them, now that they are gone.
I realised this post is really pointless and boring,
I shall not bore you any longer with my life.
Years go by really fast, this one is just going to be harder than the rest.
Just hope I can keep my head above everything.
Also reminding myself that I should be filled with the joy of the Lord, not being happy.
It does not last.
Sometimes I wish I could press fast-forward and skip to the good parts